Peter

I think I’m open minded. That I’m a sort of default person. I can be anything that I want to be, or at least I can imagine in my head being that other person. I create the ideal world I want to be in and in that world I have become an amazing person. Only as amazing as I mention. I can see myself in a situation where I am successfully interacting with the people around me. I hit the play button on the world and it doesn’t stop until the world is destroyed. The act begins. The lines I speak are unrehearsed, yet I say them with confidence and I say everything there is on my mind. Sadly, it does not work in the world outside. I’m not with the kind of friends I desire the most, how selfish can I get. I’m not asking for friends who will be all over me. I’m wishing for the most positive atomsphere. If a setting sun will never set, I will be there watching it for aa lifetime. So many factors that my world did not take into account. So now how do I bring it up to speed, how do I get to that point. My ideal world, the one I do not want to spoil and still have not, is my prison.